Friday, August 3, 2018

Engaged




assalamualaikum, helloo!

It has been 2 years since the last time arfa update.
I'm officially no longer a medical student, but I haven't graduate yet, konvo bln Nov ni.
arfa rasa kena buat satu blog post utk cerita my final year in medical course, tgklah bila rajin nanti, taktau la bila tu.
skrg ni arfa dah menganggur 7 bln, haha yeahh menternak lemak dgn jayanya.
nk kerja tp bila memikirkan kerja arfa nanti kt hospital yg jarang ada cuti so why not arfa cuti setahun kt rmh je dulu kan supaya housemenship nanti takdela mengadu asyik keje je kan. arfa duduk rmh pn arfa still buat part time. skrg ni arfa ada jd dropship agent utk Breena Beauty (local brand yg jual makeup), and sometimes arfa terima jgk makeup job (makeup tunang, konvo, nikah, bertandang). alhamdulillah ada la jgk bakat utk conteng muka org dgn cantiknya, hihi puji diri sendiri pulak
skrg ni dah masuk 3 minggu arfa jaga adik-adik sbb mak arfa pegi Mekah sbg petugas tabung haji.
so arfa lah yg hantar dorang pegi sekolah, amek dorang, masak dan mcm2 lagi.
masa ni lah baru rasa betapa susahnya jd mak ni. adik arfa yg laki tu yg paling susah nk jaga, dia punya degil mmg extraordinary, asyik kena selawat je sbb mencabar kesabaran. alhamdulillah, setakat ni arfa pernah jd Hulk wanita sekali je, masa tu mmg arfa stress gila, taktau camne nak manage kenakalan adik-adik, penat. skrg ni masuk minggu ke3, arfa dah tau la sikit camne nk tackle adik-adik arfa yg nakal ni. mcm satu achievement jgk lah, haha

alhamdulillah sekali lagi, hmm segan nk bgtau tp memandangkan arfa masih ada followers yg setia, tak unfollow blog arfa pn wlupun dah 2 tahun wehhh tak update kan, huhu terima kasih (T_T)
actually, arfa dah jd tunangan org!! dah nk masuk 5 bln bertunang dgn org Temerloh, Pahang.
arfa kenal dia masa kat Mrsm, suka lah jgk dgn dia tp tak pernah ada hajat nk kahwin dgn dia ke apa sbb yela masa tu nerd, belajar je keje. Tunang arfa tu (Mr. H)) mmg ada hati dgn arfa since sekolah lg, haha yg ni lawak. nk dipendekkan cerita, after almost 7 years takde close contact dgn dia pn, tetiba one day dia komen kt insta story arfa. dari situ ke whatsapp, masa tu cam member jela, fa pn da 2 thn heartbroken kena tinggal dgn ex so mcm malas nk layan laki yg dok mengayat. Mr. H pulak mmg sembang cam member jela sbb dia pn baru few months kena tinggal dgn ex dia jgk, hahaha
Allah tu Maha Mengetahui, dia satukan arfa dgn Mr. H. serius tak sangka. sepanjang arfa kenal dgn Mr. H ni, arfa cuma jumpa dia kurang drpd 5 kali setahun, ye sikit je kan. arfa kan belajar kt sarawak so tu salah satu sbb tak dpt jumpa selalu. well, jimat lah duit sikit nk dating ni kan. dia pn hidup mcm org single sbb arfa jauh, weekend asyik pergi mengajar tuisyen je kumpul duit nk kahwin, hehe
to be honest, thn lepas masa nk get into this relationship arfa mcm "okay, this will be the last time for me utk usaha sendiri cari jodoh, klu kena tinggal nanti aku suruh parents je pilih jodoh, settle".
klu korang follow arfa dari dulu, ada sekali arfa post pasal heartbroken (takyah cari sbb dah simpan dlm draft sbb memalukan je). 2 thn malas nk kisah org ngorat ni semua, kadang member pn sibuk dok main dgn kita kata nk ada jodoh dgn arfa, semudah tu bergurau pasal jodoh kan tp arfa cam yela member so kita layan jela labu.

Mr. H ni mmg selalu dibiarkan, lagi2 arfa ada final exam thn lepas, sehari wish good morning dgn goodnight je, kesian betul. masa tu risau jgk kena tinggal sbb sape je boleh bersabar weh.. tp Mr. H ni positif sgt orgnya, very supportive and understanding. dia sampai terfikir nk dtg sarawak, to accompany me during my lunch & dinner time sepanjang study week. mcm wow romeo sgt kan, hahaha
mmg tak lah arfa nk kasi dia dtg sarawak, ingat harga tiket mcm naik bas keee??

lepas arfa dpt result final exam, (yeayy arfa lulus!) Mr. H pn bgtau hajat dia nk meminang arfa. hello polis, ada org buat arfa berbunga-bunga double triple punya! hihihi.. dia mmg pernah bgtau arfa yg dia ada plan pasal relationship kitorang, dia tak nk tergantung lg mcm apa jd dgn hubungan masing-masing sblm ni, cumanya dia nk arfa hbskan exam dulu, hahaha ok tak lawak
fast forward, kami bertunang pada 18 Mac 2018, sedondon baju kelabu + ungu, pakai jela baju mana yg ada.

soo.. jom cuci mata sikit


my future mother in law :)

pelamin diy sendiri, arfa cuma sewa bunga kanan kiri tu je, yg lain guna apa yg ada.

7 berbalas 5 dulang. sape rasa hantaran ni cam benda yg tak perlu pn? high 5!


inshaaAllah majlis pernikahan arfa dgn Mr.H akan berlangsung hujung tahun ni. arfa pn akan kerja hujung tahun ni so wish me goodluck! next post, arfa tak nk janji pape tp klu ada masa nanti arfa cerita perjalanan arfa tempuhi final professional exam dlm medic ni, inshaaAllah. doakan yg baik2 utk arfa dan tunang, jumpa lagi nanti! bye assalamualaikum!



Wednesday, August 31, 2016

I should start writing again

yes, I should start writing again.
because I feel as if I am alone again here.
as if I am not belong to where I am right now.

yes, I should write again.
because I tend to be quite when I'm hurt inside
I tend to be quite when I don't know whether I'm right or wrong.
I tend to be quite when I'm left behind.
I tend to be quite when I'm alone.

yes, I should write again.
because I'm hurt inside.
no one can understand.
not even my parents or my bestfriend.
not even my brain can handle this.
not even a jar of candies can cheer me up.

yes, I should write again.


my Lord, help me.